my future teachng practice

next sem will b my teachng practical...
i'm excited n at the same tyme scared..better brush up on my grammar n all these short form..
fr the timebeing i'll write it my way..hahaha..
i'm excited to go bck to school but in johore la..during school days i was somewhat dull
n mybe ok smetymes with my buddies...miss the old days...
i got a feeling tat it'll b smethng excitng n i'll take all the challenges thrown to me..
i 'll try to b a good teacher n i hope that thy'll like me...
now my prob is tat i dun hve baju kurung..hehehehe..so call telian eh..i wore t shrt n jeans most of the tyme..
nw i'm struggling to collect baju kurung fr my practical...
thnx god i dun hv to wear heals or i'll make a fool of myself falling infront of my students..
gosh i'll b teachng secondary school students...i use to outsmart my practical teacher during my school days..wat goes around cmes bck around...i love to ask questions to test them n i thnk i mght experience it..if not..then, alhamdulillah...hehehehe..
well wish me luck...i'm getting myself mentally n phsically ready fr the practical...

turning a new leaf

alhamdulillah..after few weeks of depressions which I kind of cast myself as far as i cud get fr the society..i didn't go online nor did i bother to top up my creds smetmes...
i made up my mind after 7 yrs of devotion to a guy who will never knew my feelings n i bet he still thnks i hate him by the wy i treated him n oso others...
let me tell u guys bout my life fr the past few years...
ever since i was a little girl i always get bullied n a target cuz i was diffrnt..i look diff,speaks wit a weird accent..dun blame me...i'm just a child..those tormented yrs i'd been thru..i wasnt smart..so sme girls will shove me n poke my head...i was an outcast...it was a chnging point wen my academic achievements escalated..i have friends..n smehw i bcme quite abusive..i wanted to win n i wont bck out..people still disturb me cuz i thnk cuz i'm schema or sme sort..owiz givng others a piece of my mind..heheheh..even i uni sme even col me mak nenek..mak cik..mak cmua..i learn fr the best..hehehehe..n he's a guy...my happiest moment is when i step into 2B..tat was a high achiever class...i felt like i was accepted..eventhou smetmes there will b quarels..i dun thnk any1 remember me thou..i wasnt that friendly bck then but i get involve n commited as a memeber oif the class n proud of them..if they only knew..hehehe..as usual my academic level was ok..sme competition n owiz get beat by the same guy over n over again in academic..it was fun...i love competition n tats hw i get all suit up n stuff..but then those spirit just fade away..even now i dun think i hv the spirit i did during my school days..all the sufferings did me rght..em i cn say i alwys get my frst choice..fr example..my matrix choice n oso uni...n my major..i have it all..attentions..sme luxury life i'm living..i get what i want...n i earn it fr my hardwork...all number 1.....tats my fav num...1..fr evrythng...but i'm a loser n my love life..number 1 loser..i'd been thnking tat i had to stoop up n build my life again fr scratch n this time i'm going to do it rght..strting of by frgetting the frst person i admired n i mention him most of the time in my post..well i cn try to frget him but i'll still practice n cherish the good values in him..he's a mischiveous boy u know...boys will b boys...so i dun mind at all..i dun like people judging him...fr tat i started to throw away my prejudice twards boys tat they r jerks..not all of them r..but i know i wont find another guy like him..ever..this post is dedicated to u...wherever u r..hope u r living a good life...i'll pray fr u..be a good boy..hehehehe..dun b cheeky cuz smetmes u act tat way....